I love these things! They’re decently rated and they’re perfect when I’m in a rush. Or just don’t want to prepare something for a snack.
It’s amazing how quickly one can just let things be forgotten. I am so sad that I have neglected this blog, to the point of it almost being deleted. But I’ve also been afraid to get back on here, mostly because I’m ashamed that nothing has changed at all.
I always say I’m going to change, but the nothing changes. I’m a broken record and I’m so tired of it. I’ve been working out, but I’ve also not been eating so much better as to see a difference in my body. It’s pathetic.
I’m just tired of this. This endless cycle of working out, not working out, eating too much, then hating myself. Why can’t I see how badly I need to lose this weight and become a healthier person?
It’s late nights like this one that give me motivation, but only for a short time. I quickly fall back into my old habits, but I don’t want to anymore. I want to want to workout.
I know there aren’t many people who follow me, but if any of y’all have advice, I would greatly appreciate it.
Since I’m currently a part time student, I do not have access to my gym, and I know the weather should never be an excuse to not workout, I really prefer working out in a gym. I decided to get a 7 day pass to my local gym to give it a try to decide if I want to get a membership there. I have a membership to my climbing gym, but it’s just not enough. I need weights, treadmills, ellipticals. All that fun stuff.
Also, another fun bit of news: I signed up to run the Color Me Rad 5k in June! I am so excited! Two of my sisters and I are running it and it’s gonna be great! Just another good reason I’m joining a gym!
I look at all of these wonderful weight loss posts, and am so proud of these amazing, strong, motivated women. But at the same time, I am strongly disappointed with myself. Why am I so weak that I can’t do these amazing things too? Why do I let myself be weak is the better question? I lack faith in myself, and that is not helping me. If I don’t believe in myself, I will accomplish nothing.
I need to become one of these women. I want to become an after. I want to be one of the women who can take a picture of my body and not be self-conscious. I don’t care about being skinny. I care about being fit. Being able to run a mile. Do 50 push-ups.
I only have this body. I do not get a redo later on. What I do to my body now affects my body later in life. I will join the ranks of healthy men and women. It’s going to take awhile, but nothing worth having ever comes easily.
It’s something. I turned my ankle recently, so running sucked, but it’s a start!
So accurate. And has happened way too often for my liking. Which is why I decided to just not buy junk food. Crazy, right?
I can’t remember where I found this, but if I can find the original link, I’ll post it.
It’s been quite some time since I’ve been on here, and to be honest, I’ve not wanted to get back on for awhile. I’ve not succeeded at losing weight at all, in fact, I’ve gained weight. I’m right back to where I started a year ago. I would like to get upset, but it’s pointless. I let it happen. I gave in to cravings, letting food control my life. I went for quick and easy, not healthy and filling. I let TV replace exercise, and I’m pissed. I’ve become so lazy.
I am tired of being this person. I am tired of being fat. I am tired of being tired. What do I get from greasy, fatty foods? Nothing at all. What do I get from sitting around watching TV for hours? Zip. With healthy foods and exercise I am not only becoming healthier, I’m having fun. I love cooking and preparing foods. I love going for runs, climbing a mountain, and just enjoying life. Why do I choose those things I know I shouldn’t?
I’m not going to make the same New Year’s Resolutions I always make. My resolution is to take everything one day at a time. This is my year. This is the time to become the healthy person I’ve always wanted to be.