Losing weight sucks. It's not easy, it's very emotional, and it can take a million tries until one gets it right. This time is different though. This is my last try. And I will succeed.
So accurate. And has happened way too often for my liking. Which is why I decided to just not buy junk food. Crazy, right?
I can’t remember where I found this, but if I can find the original link, I’ll post it.
365 pages, 12 chapters, and each one will be great.
(Source: enkephalins, via fitness-barbie)
Back to Step 1
It’s been quite some time since I’ve been on here, and to be honest, I’ve not wanted to get back on for awhile. I’ve not succeeded at losing weight at all, in fact, I’ve gained weight. I’m right back to where I started a year ago. I would like to get upset, but it’s pointless. I let it happen. I gave in to cravings, letting food control my life. I went for quick and easy, not healthy and filling. I let TV replace exercise, and I’m pissed. I’ve become so lazy.
I am tired of being this person. I am tired of being fat. I am tired of being tired. What do I get from greasy, fatty foods? Nothing at all. What do I get from sitting around watching TV for hours? Zip. With healthy foods and exercise I am not only becoming healthier, I’m having fun. I love cooking and preparing foods. I love going for runs, climbing a mountain, and just enjoying life. Why do I choose those things I know I shouldn’t?
I’m not going to make the same New Year’s Resolutions I always make. My resolution is to take everything one day at a time. This is my year. This is the time to become the healthy person I’ve always wanted to be.
Pretty excited…
Since I’m currently a part time student, I do not have access to my gym, and I know the weather should never be an excuse to not workout, I really prefer working out in a gym. I decided to get a 7 day pass to my local gym to give it a try to decide if I want to get a membership there. I have a membership to my climbing gym, but it’s just not enough. I need weights, treadmills, ellipticals. All that fun stuff.
Also, another fun bit of news: I signed up to run the Color Me Rad 5k in June! I am so excited! Two of my sisters and I are running it and it’s gonna be great! Just another good reason I’m joining a gym!
I am disappoint
I look at all of these wonderful weight loss posts, and am so proud of these amazing, strong, motivated women. But at the same time, I am strongly disappointed with myself. Why am I so weak that I can’t do these amazing things too? Why do I let myself be weak is the better question? I lack faith in myself, and that is not helping me. If I don’t believe in myself, I will accomplish nothing.
I need to become one of these women. I want to become an after. I want to be one of the women who can take a picture of my body and not be self-conscious. I don’t care about being skinny. I care about being fit. Being able to run a mile. Do 50 push-ups.
I only have this body. I do not get a redo later on. What I do to my body now affects my body later in life. I will join the ranks of healthy men and women. It’s going to take awhile, but nothing worth having ever comes easily.
This is what I want to be. Fit. So many girls have in their mind that they have to be skinny. No, you should want to be fit. Being fit allows you to do so much!
We need to realize that every body is different, and what is skinny on one person isn’t skinny on another person.
(Source: movement-for-life, via fitness-barbie)
Confession
I just ate almost an entire box of macaroni and cheese and now I feel absolutely disgusting. Three months ago I would’ve eaten even more to drown in the sorrow of my regret but not tonight. Thank you Lord for a new day tomorrow.
I just had a binge moment with some Cool Ranch Doritos. This happens. Just start back up again tomorrow! We’re all human!
